Not My Story To Tell

I am writing a book about my daughter, Justine’s life. Justine lived a lot of life in her 29 years. She was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder as a teenager and this made her life both exciting and challenging. Justine was killed in a car accident on March 25th 2014. This memoir is about her life from my perspective as her mother. She was a high achieving child with wisdom beyond her years until she reached puberty. Then things took a drastic turn. Bipolar disorder sent her on a roller coaster ride for many years as she learned to live with depression, mania, anxiety and fulfillment. This is her story and it’s called “Not My Story To Tell”.

66 thoughts on “Not My Story To Tell

  1. I’m looking forward to reading Justine’s story…I have a 25 year old son with mental illness–not the same as Justine’s, but I think I understand, a little. It’s a delicate dance we do as parents, letting them live their own lives, tell their own stories. This is a lovely theme for a blog; I think you’ll incidentally help people with understanding and acceptance as a result!

    Best,

    Pam

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  2. What a traumatic experience for you to have had — I’m so very sorry (and I know these words are inadequate, but my deep sympathies are with you)!
    Thank you for visiting my page, and for your most excellent feedback. Your kindness and openness as a person were evident throughout.
    Keep writing, and may the Force be with you.

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  3. What a heart-puncher. Oh my. I’m so sorry for your loss. That’s a frightening subject for parents to read, at least at first glance. Our empathy is real. (And that makes your idea for Mondays a very nice thing.) How far along are you in writing this?

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  4. Dear Cathy, I feel so sorry for your loss. You must have gone through a lot. All I could wish for is good luck in writing Justine’s story and in writing you could find solace and heal. I hope this book is a beacon of light for people with the same condition.

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  5. Your site is so inspiring, I’d like to recommend it to more people via the Blogger Recognition Award. I know not everyone participates in the awards system, and if you don’t, I completely understand. But you can find the details at http://wp.me/p6s2CE-8i if you’re interested. Either way, please take it as a sign of my regard for your site!

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  6. Hi Cathy. Thank you for liking my post and for the follow.
    Putting up a blog regarding your daughter’s story is not easy but you have taken a bold step to share it with the world who is struggling with the same issue and I commend you for that. I hope writing about her will give you healing, understanding and grace in knowing why this circumstance has been a part of your life. Feel free to reach out to me if you need a friend to talk to. Take care.

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  7. Well done you for going down this path. I am sure that the result will be helpful for others, and probably will reflect upon yourself and your daughter in a form of self help as you think more deeply into the situation.

    My grandson suffers from a bag-full of mental illnesses and has been in and out of hospital since he was fourteen. He is now twenty-one. It also seems that he has been tested with every drug known to man at every level of dosage and mix possible. Some of these may have helped, but I believe that many may have caused further damage.

    Life can be complex!

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  8. As the empathy spills forth from the tears dropping out of my eyes, I just want to thank you so much for being such a great Mom. Not many have the dedication or heart to want to write about a loved one, especially a child that has died. For example, my parents never told my daughter she even HAD an older brother until about age 7. When she asked grandma where is he and how did he die? Her reply was he is in heaven now and we don’t talk about his death for it makes us very sad.

    She’s right, it is sad; however, that’s a part of being human and I think that too many people now a days run from their tears and drink them down with alcohol, drugs, soap operas, gangs, and the zombie effect handed out to us by our government through the various media channels…

    My personal journey actually began at age 16 or so. I was so depressed with my life that I swallowed a whole bottle of tylenol. When I told my Dad, he was going to take me to the ER; however, I convinced him to take me to a friends house instead….had a lot of stomach pains, but got better a couple days later.

    Yes, I can understand the story that’s not yours. I write for the memory of my son, as well as for the ignorant masses that seem to know little about schizophrenia and how it feels. I don’t do it for the sensationalism.

    No. Not at all.

    Trust me, I wouldn’t want anyone to have to walk in my shoes; therefore, I am going to write about my journey and include my son’s brief life as well. Thanks so much for following my blog. It really touches my heart to know that there are still people out there who care enough to keep passing the torch of brave honesty.

    Sincerely,
    LaVancia

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    1. Thanks so much. I’ve read one of your blogs and I thought I was reading fiction. It was very wrong of them to put you in jail and not a hospital. I will read more but your bravery is astounding. Keep writing your story. Get it published. You have a powerful message to tell the world about mental illness and how they imprison people instead of helping them. We need to speak out more and stop this! That’s why I’m telling my story too.

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      1. Yeah, about three or four years later, my state started making up a “mental health” court system. I have met several doing what was ordered, such as coming to a RCF and not a hospital…I was happy to see this improvement, just wish they had it when my fate occurred.

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      2. I agree. It’s just sad that the nation doesn’t seem to want to spend any extra money providing the services these inmates really need, in fact, the government is doing what appears to be the opposite. I know for a fact because I was going to be on my conditional release in a larger town; however, due to funding, my state cut out the residential care’s funds and therefore, they had to move everyone out…this resulted in me coming back to the institution…

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      3. That’s a sad state of affairs. I hope that as more and more people are talking about mental illness it will come out of the shadows of society and be treated like any other illness. Cancer is a trillion dollar industry and mental health is ignored.

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  9. Hi Cathy
    I am so sorry to hear about your daughter, Justine. As a parent, I can’t even imaging what you have been going through. You probably don’t remember me, I met you many years ago at Linda Weissman’s home, with Nach Luna. We did a presentation about magnets.
    I am here in Lompoc, visiting with Nach and Susan Luna and your name came up. Nach said he had an appointment to meet you at your house, about 6 months ago, he feels so bad about missing it. He would like to talk to you, maybe you can give him a call when you have a few minutes. Wishing you peace and happiness… Barbara Albert

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  10. Hi Cathy,

    What an inspiring and encouraging blog you have. I just found my way here today and I’m so glad I did. I am truly sorry for your loss, but what you are doing is wonderful. Your daughter’s story needs to be heard, and because of your courage and strength, it will be.

    I really look forward to reading more of your blog. Thank you for sharing her story with us and for allowing us to follow along on your journey.

    Best,
    -Phoebe

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  11. I am sorry to hear about your daughter. Nice going o the book something positive is going to come out of thing. Plus the it is the year of the rooster that’s what the Chinese say. All you dreams will come through all you project will be a success that is what they say. So good luck on the book. That is a great idea. And thank you for following me.

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